my username is Halogen Bulb. i'm a queer hikikomori furry who uses they/them pronouns.
i don't really have a gender identity at the moment. i'm 5'10", and 20 years old.
i'm also a scorpio and live in the pacific north west of the united states.
my favorite candies are sour gummy worms and butterfingers.
my favorite colors are gray, blue, and green.
i like rainy weather and have bad executive dysfunction issues, as well as brain fog. i'm also obsessed with anime/movies/music and spend most of my time hoarding and consuming them.
interests
i watch a lot of japanese cartoons. i'd say my favorite genres are denpa, avant-garde, and kimokawaii. i've been watching a lot of truck-kun and moeshit lately though, desu.
if you want to see exactly what im watching though, click the anilist link at the top of the page or right here.
i also listen to a lot of music. i don't really have a way of tracking a lot of it, since i never keep up with my rym, discogs, or last.fm profiles. i'm very picky when it comes to music. i tend to listen to things with "post-" in the genre name, kek. post-rock, post-hardcore, post-metal, etc. especially if it genre mixes with indie rock or experimental. half the time when i try new music i dislike it.
i watch movies too. same deal with anime, if you wanna see what i'm watching, check the top of the page or click right here. i'm much more open and leniant with the type of movies i'll watch. although, if a movie doesn't grab my attention i have a hard time keeping up with it.
personality
i'm very socially awkward. i struggle to maintain relationships, and am very isolated. there's only two people irl that i have any contact with outside my immediate family. i'm pretty lonely though. i wouldn't mind talking to more people.
i'm nowhere near self-sufficient and rely on my family for pretty much everything. i can't even make phone calls without freezing up and trying to avoid them. i don't know if i'll ever be a functioning member of society. it's all soykaf anyways.
i have an intense brain fog that prevents me from doing basic mental tasks, like using my working memory, visualizing things, or doing math. i barely function, and spend all my nights glued to my computer monitor and desk chair. i lurk. i don't really post anywhere, yet i hate being alone. i stare at chatrooms for hours, or watch youtube to feel like im talking to someone.
at this point, i think i might be a schizoid. i get no pleasure from anything and am intensely paranoid all the time. i don't know if it's a result of not taking care of myself, isolation, or something else, but, it affects my daily life greatly.
according to the political compass, and meyers briggs test, i'm a logician (intp-t), and squarely libleft.